Holidays have started and this time round, it seems that theres a whole load of work waiting to be done. Im in the midst of completing my FYP experiments which will end only next week, scheduled for driving lessons so that im able to pass on the next attempt, study for the upcoming UT3, and finally, try to set aside some time to blend in with the Hari Raya mood (though its still a lil too early). Its not as easy as it may seem, juggling few commitment at the same time. But i know this wont stay long, cause im left with one semester, before i can taste the feeling of GRADUATION. Im sure the other Year 3′s would have the exact same feeling.

Lets side track to other interesting topics. I met up with my girls last week to celebrate Sheila’s birthday and at the same time, they decided to give me a warm surprise by celebrating my birthday too! Oh yes, i had a blast that night! So the plan went quite well, except that Najiha leaked out a very important secret! But nonetheless, it was still a surprise for Sheila knowing that Sophiani could make it for her bday celebration. Gathered at Pastamania and while waiting to break our fast, they started giving us our very first gift! A very simple, yet a memorable one. An A4 size paper, filled with beautiful and sweet words about our friendship. Somehow, i was close to tears when i read every single one of it.

(Picture below: From Najiha, and i shall not post the other 3 because the wordings are quite obvious, and since its specially for me, i wouldnt want to share with the public. Hee)

Afterwhich we  had our dinner, did some catching up about each others life, and once we’re done, we headed to Mc Cafe. Another speechless moment, whereby we received our gifts and i cant stop thanking them!  From the Victoria Secret gift, to the Charles and Keith gift and finally the cute princessy iphone casing As for Sheila, we made her a frame with our pictures in it, so that she can hang it on her room wall and whenever she look at it, she’ll realise how beautiful her favourite girls are. Haha!  So that night we snapped alot of pictures, simply because we’re g.i.r.l.s. So dont blame us for camwhoring so much!

Next up would be outdoor photoshoot with this girls with a theme of “bride and bridesmaid” Obvious isnt it? Well, a friend of us is getting married real soon and she insist of having a photoshoot together before stepping into her next pahse of life. And the other thing which excites me is that, Sheila and I will be taking the role of a bridesmaids on her actual wedding day! I bet her wedding is gonna be really awesome!

Apart from that, my family, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, and bf family, who had made my 19th a wonderful one, thank you so much! Talking about birthday gifts, i was really overwhelmed with all the presents that i received. Tell me, how can i not scream on top of my lungs when Daddy quietly got me an Iphone for my 19th? And how can i not be thankful when my aunts/uncles gave me a huge sum of money for my birthday gift? Not including the 3 perfumes, guess bag, watch, wallet, bracelet, cosmetics, dress, picture frame, novel, accessories and finally few dinner treats. Tell me im bragging, but listing down every single details just shows how much i appreciate every single gifts right? :p

So i guess turning 19 would make me somewhat a little more wiser? Hopefully ya! So whats next? Getting engage? HAHA!

I’ve always asked her why and she always told me because orphans need love too. At age 15 she was deemed infertile. She looked at me and said “that’s okay, I want to adopt, remember?”  She GMH

Quoted from GMH, I took a little time to think about this issue. All because i was having the same thought of adopting kids in the future. Furthermore, i totally believe that orphans deserves love too, and especially those babies who are not even a year old and was already left to live in this world all by themselves. Pity isnt it? They dont get the chance to feel how it is to have parents, and deep down i guess theyre hoping that their parents would still be there for them. Kids like this, theyre far much more independent compared to other kids out there. They know how to be responsible, doesnt demand for much things, and try their best to succeed in everything even though they lack of support.

I told Mum a few times that i might be considering adoption, also because i want to help such kids. I think they have the same potential as other kids to shine and show their true capabilities. Im sure they have been suffering silently inside, so hurting that it brings down their confidence level down. They deserved much more and hopefully theres still nice people to treat these types of kids well

Talking about kids, i found some pictures of babies from the net! Theyre simply irresistible right!

Tell me, how can i not love kids?!

I was really nervous and kept having adrenaline rush when the test date was nearing. So i just told myself to keep calm, and whatever the result is, theres always a reason behind it. I practiced some test roads from 6-7am, and afterwhich i went into the circuit for the final practice. I screwed up when it comes to parallel parking, vertical parking, ramp, directional chain, and almost every obstacles in the circuit. Yes, i almost gave up and wanted to “runaway” from the test. It was really a horrifying experience and i kept calling my friends to calm me down.

So at about 825am, my name was being called and i really really thank god my tester was a lenient one. He’s really nice, and because of that, i didnt even felt nervous when driving. He guided me to the Ramp, and i managed to overcome the first obstacle smoothly! Even though i was given 2 demerit points for not checking my blind spot, but hey! I seriously thought im gonna get an Immediate failure for that. 1 down, 4 to go. Next up was parallel parking. Can you imagine how my  heartbeat was at that time? CAUSE PARALLEL PARKING WAS MY ONLY WORRY! I started to perspire, my hands were shaking. But i told myself to give my best. After turning right, reversing, drive again, turning left, reverse again, the car was still not in alignment. I almost cried. But after much adjustment, I managed to get the car into the slot! Awesome isnt it? Without hitting the curb! I was really proud of myself, really. Then i was asked to do vertical parking and directional chain, both was okay, just that i need to adjust it a few times. PHEW! Only one last obstacle left before i can finally move on to road. Road is so much easier right? So once you passed the circuit, its almost equivalent to you passing your test already! And this part was really disheartening. I hit the curb, and mount up onto it during the crank course. Even the instructor shouted “Alamakk” because i think he expected me to ace through the circuit smoothly. Sad isnt it? A mistake that i never thought i would make. But well, maybe i just need more practices to pass.

Ferrari? Porsche? Mazda? Forget about it Nadiah! Get your licence first! Tsk

Yesterday was really great. I met up with these girls and instead of watching Sex and the City 2, we decided to chill at Starbucks. It was the usual girls talk and what more if its wasnt about having fun and laughter? It has always been about the past memories, love life, academic progress, work and personal problems. Thats the difference when you have a bunch of close friends whom you can really open up to. You’ll start sharing everything and anything, because you know they’re the ones that can really understand you and put themselves in your position. I like that kind of feeling. Its like, you’ll never feel alone.

They told her that after this surgery, she’d have to be on permanent meds and wouldn’t be able to speak again.

Last night, I watched her perform in the musical The Wizard of Oz.

She was Dorothy. She GMH

I have a twin sister called Ruby, we don’t get along.

She has the most beautiful hair. Everyone agrees. 6 months ago, I found out I had cancer and as a result I lost my hair.

On our 18th birthday, her present to me was a human hair wig made from the hair shaved from her head.

Her deep down love GMH.

We are teachers and we were having Dad day at school.

One little girl came up to the front with no father by her side. All the other dads judged the father because of how inconsiderate he must be not to be there.

The little girl explained to the crowd that her daddy would be there on that special day, but heaven’s just too far.

Her courage GMH.

Maybe i understand all the confusions that youre going through, when your heart says stay and battle through the pain, but your mind wouldnt want to give it another chance. Its like that, and who says love is an easy thing to be dealt with? When it comes to finding the right person, it all comes down to how well they know you, and how well they would be willing to get to know you. Finding a person who would understand your faults and love you for every single one of them. Someone who will cherish their time with you, and never doubt that you cherish their time with them. The person that can fight with you and hurt you, but still be there for you through thick and thin. It may not be the good guy, that makes things easy, but it’s the right guy, the one that you love, and you know loves you back. And now, do you ever consider if he owns any one of the above? Hell no, cause he simply cant be bothered to even TRY.

I know no one wants to experience a goodbye, especially to someone who means the world to you. But look, a wise man wouldnt do such things, which is a total disgrace! He’s not worth your tears, and i know how tough can life be for you now. But honey, do thank god that you’re still young and im sure there’s better ones to come in future.

I think nowadays, looks isnt a factor for girls anymore to choose their life partner. Ive learnt that the more important things would be morality and sincerity.

Sigh!

And dear Naj, im counting down to the days when we can finally meet!